Nice to know I was missed. I'll try to be on more. I was going through a real rough time. I lost all my self esteem, I was technically off my meds while I waited for new ones to kick in. I was put in the partial hospitalization program where I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar Disorder. I'm still waiting for the medicine that curbs some of my irrational irritability to kick in. I was impulsively suicidal, the worse kind of suicidal to be if you ask me. I was a complete wreck.